Friday, January 28, 2011

The heart of God is a wide open expanse just waiting to be discovered. I have recently ventured to Arizona to spend some time with my older sister Laura. I think of the verse from Hosea: "Therefore I am now going to allure her; I will lead her into the desert and speak tenderly to her."
Arizona is definitely a desert and I believe this is one of the reasons He has brought me here. I have seemed to lost my passion, my focus for the Father's heart. How easily I rise in the morning and forget Him. The God that gave me breath and rescued me from death. I become so entangled with the world and follow lesser lovers. Lovers that come and steal away my soul bit by unknowingly bit. I am tired of succumbing! I realize that I do not know the Father's heart at all. I have misconceived notions about him. And the moments He wishes to speak tenderly to me I am usually distracted by lesser things. Yet He still comes and comes and comes back for me. He does not stop pursuing. What a love He holds for me, for everyone. Even in my distracted, depraved, selfish ways He never relents. I am appalled by my lack of response! Yet it isn't His nature to push His love on me. He offers it and I have the option of accepting. Oh, but how deep his love is and how limitless. My idea of love is blown apart by His. I love Him only because He has first loved me. But what kind of love is it? Would I recognize it? To understand His love in return ignites my love and passion for him. Jesus show me this love in your heart. I need it. This is the one truth that I really want to grasp because I believe it will shift everything inside me. Once I know Your love then I will live my life in response to this great gift. I am done with lesser loves, the counterfeits, the unfeeling, the passionless, the dead. Lodge this love of yours inside of me so that I will never forget it. Come Jesus, come and show me the honesty of your affections for me. Wrap it around and around me until it covers everything. Until it needs to start seeping inside my flesh so that it can't escape. Your love is not an idea or a concept. It is real and alive and full of life. And I need it. I don't think I can survive without it. I don't want to survive without it. It is the true reality I can no longer ignore. Nor do I want to. It is time for the real and eternally things to capture my heart. Let it be so Lord. Let it be so.